no chinese words.....

today run out of home......... sterssful...... painful......... hurt......... i m crazy now...... doing something that i also dont know what i m doing........ i wanna cry but i cannot who can help me? nobody.......... love is leaving me left only the memorise......sad............ today no chienese words....... at internet cafe ..... with the smell of smoke .. i m going to kill myself......... but i cannot do that without the allawance of god ........ i wanna cry.......... please let me alone ......... please dont let me alone .............. let me cry............... if u love me........... dont let me cry. if u love me....